I'm back again. Taking a class at the same place where it all started last year. Things have not been going that well. I've been seeing a psychiatrist for medication management. I'm currently taking 150mg of Effexor daily. It's not helping with the hair pulling, but it's helping with the mood. I'm very even. I haven't had many crying days. Before the Effexor, I was taking Paxil, which worked really well. To that, we added Abilify. For the first month, it was great! Then...the Abilify built up in my system and gave me a lot of uncontrollable movements. I just could not sit still. I suffered with that feeling for a month before I went back to the psychiatrist and he took me off that medication. I'm really willing to try the Abilify again now that I am on Effexor instead of Paxil. The doctor seemed to think that the combination of the Abilify and Paxil is what was giving me the heebie jeebies.
As for the hair pulling, I still can't stop. I just can't leave my head alone. I rub my scalp all the time, feeling for pimples or weird hairs, just so I can worry at them or pull the hair out. It's gotten so I just pull my hair all the time. I'm back to being bald on the top, and bald behind my ears. I can only wear my hair up. I never wear it down. I just don't have pretty hair. If I didn't pull it out all the time, I might have pretty hair. I don't know if I will ever be able to grow my hair out again so I can wear it down. I was doing so well last year, too. I messed that up.
